a new low.

Today, we took our daughter to Universal studios for her 20th birthday.  We were so excited to go on the Hogsmead ride.  We waited in the line for an hours, got all the way up to the ride.  Then they put me in a "test" seat in front of the entire line to see if the seat would lock.  Guess what, it didn't and I was asked to exit the line and wait for my daughters at the end of the ride.  My boobs were too big to allow the ride to close over me chest. 
You know when I see myself in my mind, I'm not fat.  Maybe that's my problem.  I've been cutting back on my carbs but that doesn't seem to help.  I don't now what to do. My insurance won't help pay for any sort of gastric surgery so that's out. 
Fortunately my insurance is paying for a breast reduction so I'll lose about 5lbs there but I need to lose about 150 from the rest of my body.
I just don't know how i'm going to do it.

Tomorrow's the big day.

I'm starting my Atkins diet tomorrow morning.  Today I weighed in at a whopping 279lbs.  Breakfast in the morning, an ham omlette.  Lunch will be a salad and chicken breast.  Dinner is Taco's carne asada for the family, I'll have mine without the tortilla shell and add a salad.  I have two snacks between breakfast and lunch.  I'm taking an Atkins chocolate shake with me and some celery and cheese.  My goal for this first phase is only 20 net carbs a day.  Tomorrow I'll figure out the rest of my meals for the week and ask my husband to help me fix my dinners.  Sometimes he like to have dinner started before I get home.  His favorite side dish in roasted potatoes and onions in tons of butter. 

Oh, I did get some great news last Friday.  My surgeons office called and by breast reduction was approved by the insurance company.  I'm scheduling surgery for Dec 1st.  I'll be off work for two weeks possibly three.  But since we're taking a trip to Kissimmee Florida for a soccer tournament I didn't want to press my luck with my staff and be off too much.  I have to have the surgery before the end of the year or I'll have to go through the whole pre-determination process again and then I'll have to pay co-insurance and deductibles.  As is stands now it doesn't look like I'll have to pay the surgeon or the hospital.  We'll see.

Any whoo..  I'm off to double check my menu for the tomorrow and gather my things up for work, it' going to be a busy day.  I'm the only one in the office until Thursday. 

Hmm, maybe there's something to it??

So, we ran into a friend at dinner the other and night and my husband made the comment that he looked like he had lost some weight.  He said that he had lost 25 pounds,  his doctor had put him on the Atkins diet.  Now mind you this is a "big" man, so 25 lbs to him is like 5-10 on a reguar size person.  I'm am by no means meaning that in the wrong way, because it would probably look the same on me, given I need to lose 122lbs myself.
So, after we got home and everyone had gone their separate ways I jumped on the computer and decided to research the Atkins diet again.  I remember early in it day, this diet seems so strict that there was no way I could follow it.  But today, there seem to be more options.  The website looked interesting and they have a new book with more recipes.  The recipes I looked up seem very doable.  So.... today when I run to Wal-mart to pick up a few things I'm going to grap that book, if they have it. 
What's it going to hurt right?  I've tried everything else why not this.